So I’ve been gone for awhile. Best intentions and allguess I’m more human than I realized. But I do have alot to update. still going round and round to some degree but taking things abit slower. funny how wethink we can jump
and fix everythingall at once. like thereis a magic potion and we’ll twitch our noses do a few things we’ve been long putting off and poof it’ll all be fixed.
During my multiple attemptsthis year at funding an answer somewhere otherthan within myself I stumbled uponthe”Big Book” now I am not analochoke or even proneto addictions however there are things Wither these pages that havehelped me. One day at a time one thing at a time. What was my biggest hurdle and could I work on one thing at a time. so I’ve hadsome success. almost no pounds lighter more fitthem I was and much happier in the body I now have and.with that have regained some confidence and self esteem. But more importantly there is now this voiceI hear that cheers me on, lifts me up and helps me believeI can do this.
So where to begin. At some point this year i realized I was chasing mymy tail. Between work, kids, money etc life. I was going round and r ound just enough . as I sit herenwriting and thinking Inrealize I was slowly withdrawing becoming more and morI hear often e comfortable away from people places and th- ings. I literally was perfectly fine sitting in the back room all weekend reading romance novel after romance novel or binge watching Netflix. Meanwhile. I struggled in areas never hard for me. I’d forget birthdays, purposefully skip appointments, it was ok if we didn’t eat dinner or sheets were only changed every two weeks or laundry would sit. I ignored that my mind body and soul was aching.
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